Anodyne

Do. Not. Want.

I have been having a lot more dreams lately, and last night I had a doozy of a nightmare. The kind that sticks to your insides like oatmeal, long after the sun has come up and long after the dream becomes to fuzzy to remember. I woke up weeping inconsolably. The bummer is? This dream started out sooo swank and fun, and then WHAM.

Therefore! I think I've got some inner demons to exorcise, and one way I plan to do that will be to spin tonight at Timeless Underground-. I need hard deep beats so it'll be mostly electronica with a darker edge, but it will also be whatever I feel like playing.  It's been quite a while since I took the reins of a stream, and I've been itching for a reason to do so. Come and join me if you like, the more the merrier.

You mean everyone's not doing it?

Ok, so I'll admit it, I tend to look at other people's profiles. Often. Frequently. If I've spoken to you, it's highly likely I've scoped out your profile. I heard some describe it as perving on profiles once, and that's kinda what it is. You never know what you'll find, and I'm fascinated by the ways in which people choose to represent themselves. Plus, it's that very activity that led me to Timeless Underground for the first time, and thus opened up a giant box of wonderful.

Thus, it was surprising to me to figure out recently that a lot of our friends hadn't noticed that Rane and I have "partnered", because we did so way back on September 9th. To be fair, we didn't make a big deal out if it. I just kinda figured people had noticed by now. We met at an event in Caledon, and started chatting after we both exclaimed over a song Gabi played. We became fast friends, and Rane has been a bright spot in my already awesome SL existence. I don't think there'll be a ceremony, and there absolutely, certainly, will not be any prim babies.

This partner box is a funny thing, it can mean so many things to people. For some it denotes a close friendship, and some people go to great lengths to have elaborate weddings. For us, it just makes sense, if we're both online we can generally be found in the same spot doing something silly.

or sweet.

Nothing more than...

     It's always a little surprising when I meet someone who treats SL purely as a fantasy, a place where actions taken or even simply described don't count in the Real world. It's surprising to me because my avvie and my self are inexorably intertwined, to the point that putting on a furry avatar (I have an awesome Field Mouse) makes me itch. I have no problems with furries, it's just not me.
     When SL and my RL are in balance this close relationship is a great thing. Particularly lately, I've had such great experiences in SL and Ive been taking the lessons learned and the confidence gained into my RL. I wish the energy flow would only go in that one direction, but that's not how the worlds work. Lately the after shocks of some bad RL stuff have affected my SL time.  I've been feeling unworthy, shy and like my skills don't measure up.  However, the evidence seems to show the opposite, I'm freaking Sally Fields  (people like me, they really do).
      Therefore I am choosing to believe. My dad always told me "be where you are", and that's going to be my mantra for the next little while.